Oh.

I'm alive.

What are emotions?

My feelings are all out of wack y'all. Things that would break down any sane person, I react to with a mere, meh. I don't know if I'm up to my limit in fucks given, but my blood pressure hasn't risen once in response to all the stunts going on around me. I'm not bragging about my lack of emotions, in fact I'm nervous. I joke all the time about being evil, am I turning into a super villain? Often I found myself sitting and plotting. Thinking long term about vengeance that I think is due to me. Dramatic much? Yes, yes and yes.

But I wonder also if my calmness about everything that's happening is simply my spirit at peace. What if my whole being decided to stop fighting and accept the outcomes. I would like to think that's it.

This blog entry is vague. I know that. But I have reporters in my life who like to spread my business like interns (unpaid) newscasters. So I gave just enough to get this off my mind, and just a little so you won't know what the hell I was talking about.


-End Scene-


*sings* I know you think this blog is about you, don't yoooooou




-Toodles

In time of trials...

This song is helping me get through my trials....

-Toodles

It all falls down...

It was the best of times, it was the worse of times. Pray for me saints, I can only conclude that from this point on everything will come crumbling down....


-Tierra

So...

WHAT A WEEK! The devil was so busy! And like a loon I let him deal with me. Thank God for positive people. And reality tv :) Work has been a good deterrent. I know, me appreciative of work? Who would have thunk it lol

In other news my body is breaking down. I can hear the ocean from my left ear. I googled my symptoms and it looks like I have tinnitus. Tinnitus is a permanent internal sound in your ear. Like, it comes and goes but it's permanent with no cure. Weeps. 


So there's your update, a long and more detailed blog will be posted later. I haz sleepiness.



-Toodles

An update on the job front...

Holla, I'm a married woman! It has been two weeks and I can honestly say... nothing has changed lol. We've been together 10 years so, yeah.

But I have other news, I'm a bank teller. No exclamation mark for that though. It's the most boringestic (yes, made up word, deal) job ever. However it is a job that pays dollars as currency so all is well. The company also gave me time for both my wedding and a week for my honeymoon even though I had only work 3 days previously. In this economy that's rare. REALLY rare. So I'm going to act like a grown up, work this job with no complaints. Scratch that, some complaints. I wouldn't be me without whining a little...

Working for the bank doesn't mean I'm completely out the job market. I still looking for jobs in my major, Mental Health. I'm interested in group homes, homeless shelters etc. Of the ones I looked up online, most of the job shifts are for overnights. Not kosher. Especially with Officer working nights too. But I'm still looking.

And that's what's been going on with me. Busy two weeks with two new beginnings. Yay me!



-Toodles

Faking hard to be real...

Everyday I convince myself that I don't care what others say about me. I'mma do me I whisper into my pillow before I start my day. A small part of that is true. I live for God and my close, immediate family. That's it. No one else. But I found myself caring about how my actions affect others. There's people I interact with that I could take or leave them. But I know that they don't feel the same about me that I do about them. So I smile and carry on.

Only my thoughts....

1. The maximum time spent in Vegas can not exceed 4 days. It is known.
2. I never knew I would miss my kids as much as I have on vacation. The longest week ever.
3. Thank God for Twitter. We're 3 hrs behind and I felt guilty texting my East Coast friends.
4. When does the, Damn, you married now, feeling suppose to kick in?
5. I wish I was on Four Weddings last Sunday, my wedding kicked ass.
6. Two close friendships ended recently. Causality of growth I guess.
7. How about those O's?
8. Lebron finally did it, no hairline jokes for a minute, okay?
9. I want the new Samsung Galaxy III.
10. I think I will finally become serious about losing weight.

Bonus: Sandusky was found guilty of 45/48 charges. He will die in prison. I will laugh.

Might want to look at that family tree...

Janet Jackson, duh                

Tyler Perry

Did you notice how they resemble each other? Totally random but so what.

-Toodles

Kathy Lee Gifford, You a stupid hoe! Stupid hoe....

Okay, ignore the title, I'm just excited to be back! Back from where? Um, my house d'oh. Anywho, Kathy Lee Gifford, who use to be Regis' side kick once upon a time long long ago, was in the news this week. The other morning they had the pleasure to interview Martin Short. No, I will not provide background for Mr. Short lol. 


So... why is Mrs. Gifford a blog post?

Remember me?

It has been awhile. I've been busy being unemployed. My wedding is in 3 wks (eek!) I have everything but nothing ready. I'm such a last minute person so I'm not use to pacing and scheduling things.

School is over *cues the best of Jill Scott* I got an A and a B. The B knocked my gpa down a peg but that's another story....

So what's been good with you? Any summer book suggestions? Any hairstyles you can recommend for my wedding?

Drop me a line.


-Toodles

Late Bus: Asking all Dem Questions, Youtube HA HAs!

My sis in law introduced me to these hilarious fools. I saw myself in some of the questions Emmanuel mentioned and I ain't mad. LMAOOOO!

Dude's face pure RUBBER!

-Toodles

Wanna own a Citi Trends? Must know A LOT of black people....

Where the black people at?!

Yesterday as I was window shopping online for clothes SHUTTIE! I decided to check franchise information for different companies. Now you might ask why, well... I don't have an answer. No, I do not have buckets of gold bracelets that can melted down. No, I do not have any unclaimed money. No, I do not have an elderly uncle with no heirs. I'm just nosy, ok?

You make me feel, you make me feel like an inexperienced mother....

Up until this moment, May 10th, I believed myself to be the champion of potty training. It's on my parent stat card. Throughout the years, I bragged about how I successfully trained my oldest daughter in 2 weeks with NO accidents. I wasn't worried one Jill Scott low note about potty training my youngest when the time came....

Well... now's the time and she ain't trained.

To Cry or Not to Cry: Wedding edition

I've been asked this question more and more as my wedding date gets closer.

"Do you think you will cry when you get married?"

I got a question....

Question: 
Am I weird for reading celebrity autopsy reports? I've read Dr. West (Kanye's mother), Anna Nicole Smith, Michael Jackson's, Whitney Houston's and countless others...

I was about to open a browser tab to read Don Cornelius, of Soul Train fame, autopsy when something stopped me, like hey, you reading coroner's reports on a Friday night?


Yes, yes, yes I am.

-Toodles

Captain Save A P*ss, Brian McKnight edition

Ahem... As if the song wasn't enough, Brian McKnight wanted to go all visual on y'all asses. He won't stop, can't stop tryna show you how ya p*ussies work... Watch with your blinds closed...

How Your P*ssy Works from Brian McKnight

-Toodles

You're the one that I think about all daaaay

I wrote this blog entry a long time ago. I was going through my draft folder and was like, whoa, I should upload this. And with the wedding fastly approaching, it makes sense. I'm not going to reveal as much as I did like Locks situation but hey, here's some of me and Officer's background :)

I'm pretty open about my background. I gave you a glimpse of my early "love" life with Locks here, part 2 and finally part 3. I write about my past not to gain sympathy but to build a basis for some of the opinions I might express on this blog.

Officer is the biggest support system I have in my life. I honestly don't have parental figures that give me advice, check up on me or anything like that so I often bounce my ideas off of Officer. But how did we get so  close? Let me begin....

Yes to the Dress!

I got my wedding dress guys! It's beautiful AND white ;) The funniest and best part of my fitting, was that my gown fits me like a glove. I literally can't gain or lose a pound or else I'd have to pay for alterations. I was so nervous about my gown only because I ordered it online without seeing it in person. I like the style and ordered it in good faith. Viva my wedding day. I'm about to stunt on hoes. Not really.

50 days!

-Toodles

These are my confessions....

I'm the type of person who often time appears standoffish. I struggled with this my whole life.

"I thought you were mean before I met you."


*Sings* When I was a young warthog.......... Oop, wrong topic....

Um, well I'm not. I'm a people watcher. Until I "know" you, I'm silent. I'm just feeling my way around. Some people are anxious around quiet people. This use to make me laugh inwardly all the time.

But over time I broke away from my mean girl stance. I think my girls helped with that. Children force you to become social. They're in school, sports, Chuck E Cheese... Places with lots of kids and parents you have to interact with.

Often time I wish I could be that person again. Reserved and distance. Unf*ckable.



Maybe on the weekends?



-Toodles