Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I know about love... Pt 3

You can read part one here and part two here.

Fast forward to July 14, 2005. I'm 21 years old. Life is good. I've been with Officer, my high school sweetheart, for four years now. We have two girls, one born just a week ago at the time. I'm settling in with our new addition when I get a phone call from my cousin.

Cousin: I saw Locks earlier.
Me: Oh.
Cousin: He was walking with his cousin and I picked them up and gave them a ride.
Me: That's cool.
Cousin: I told him you had two girls now and he has two girls by the girl he was messing with before you.
Me: Wow, I didn't know that (*thinks to self* God is funny)
Cousin: Yeah, he told me to tell you hi, and that he hopes you're doing good.
Me: Oh *rolls eyes*

My cousin and I talked some more and then that was it. I shrugged the whole conversation off and that was that.


                                                             -----Next Day-----
                           

"OMG, Locks is DEAD!!!" My cousin screams into the phone.
"WHAT?! But you saw him yesterday!"
"I know. After I dropped him off, Locks got into some argument with a guy and the guy shot him in the head later that night."

I was in shock. I was ashamed. The previous day my hatred and indifference to Locks wasn't pretty. I felt silly especially after the good will he had towards me. My cousin's sobbing snapped me back into reality.

"I should have just passed them by! If I would not have picked them up, Locks would'nt have seen the guy and the guy would not have killed him! It's my fault!!!"

Of course we both knew it wasn't my cousin's fault. From my cousin's conversation yesterday, I learned that Locks had a good job downtown working on a cruise ship. He was the sole provider for his family. Why did he go back to his old hangout? He changed his life, Locks didn't belong to those streets anymore, so why? It hurt my heart to know there will be two little girls without their father because some knuckle head couldn't settle a disagreement like an adult.

After hanging up the phone, I cried. As much as I moved on and erased Locks from my life, I was still human.  
And Locks was human too. We had good times and bad. He was my first love. A love that taught me how to adjust and manage other loves that will enter my life. When Officer came home from work, I told him all about Locks and his death. It felt good to get it the weight off my shoulders and heart.

And it feels even better releasing it here.

I know I've been calling him Locks throughout my blog but he has a name. I'm posting the article that was written about his killing. Locks was only 23 *sigh* If you stroll down, you'll see him, he was killed Thursday July 14th at 11:15 pm.

http://www2.citypaper.com/news/story.asp?id=10305

Rest in Peace Locks.



-Toodles

Wedding Blues

Ugh. That's the only word I can think of to use for my emotions right now. I'm finally getting some kind of handle on my wedding. It took forever but I finally found a photographer that will give me the rights to my pictures (image that) and had a decent rate. I also found bridesmaid dresses. It wasn't as simple as that sentence but I'm too exhausted for anymore of an explanation. Currently I'm writing up my songlist. I had one previously but that disappeared when my lap top died.

I'm sort of overwhelmed but I'll manage. I'm trying to get the little things done before I start back to work and really get swamped.


Ugh.



-Toodles

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Reading is AWESOME!

                                              

This isn't a "real" blog entry. I just had to express my love for this cute little book I found at my local library.

The Very Best Daddy of All has everything children love: animals, Daddies, rhyming words and pretty pictures. I love how the book displays different ways fathers help their babies (Message!).

I had my 6 year old read the book aloud to the family and she was so proud she could almost read the entirely thing by herself.

So... if you have kids, love kids, buy/borrow but don't steal The Very Best Daddy of All.

*Reading Rainbow song*


-Toodles


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Friday, November 25, 2011

Underwhelmed



My Thanksgiving was....


Anyway, I had to cook today. Which is a travesty. You're never suppose to have to cook any food for at least a week after Thanksgiving. I think it's written in the Bible somewhere...


I'm taking leftover donations for those with an abundance of Thanksgiving food. Drop a line in my comments and I'll meet you on a bus route somewhere.


*crosses greedy fingers*


-Toodles

Have a big ol' narrow seat...


Ndamukong Sun was just trying to "get out the situation."

Oh.

I'd hate to see Ndamukong Sun actually engage in a fight. Smh. He needs anger management, an IHOP smiley pancake and Jesus taking the wheel. I won't make a guess at his potential fine from the Commisioner but what a waste of talent.

The rest of Sun's explanation:


"I was on top of a guy being pulled down and trying to get up and get off the ground, [that's] why you see me pushing the helmet down, because I'm trying to remove myself from the situation. A lot of people are going to interpret it as... or create their own story lines for seeing what they want to interpret it, but I know what I did and the Man Upstairs knows what I did." Snatched from NFL.com




Denial.




-Toodles



Ball So Hard University


Ray Lewis chant:
What time is it?
Game time!
What time is it?
Game time!
Any dogs in the house?
Woof Woof Woof!
Any dogs in the house?
Woof Woof Woof!

Yes, I am a student of Ball So Hard University. However I didn't stay my whole class period yesterday. I was at Walmart practicing tackling skills for Black Friday sales. I did manage to slip into my seat the last 10 minutes of the 4th quarter.

My Ravens are now 8-3. I cringe at the 3 losses. Those losses were to inferior opponents. We should be 11-0 but... ugh nevermind. I didn't even get to blog about Sunday's game against the Bengals because it was such a short week. (We won too).

Yesterday game was all about these players:
Lardarius Webb
T-Sizzle Suggs
Joe Flacco's moustache
Sack hongry defense!

Homefield advantage baby! We'll take it!


8-3


-Toodles

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Pain and Misery


Someone put a hit out on me and my mattress is the hitman. I'm sure of it. Every morning when I wake up, I'm not singing along with the birds, I am shaking my fist at Zeus about my back. My back is forever being abused by my bed. I need love, food and memory foam mattress.

Pay pal much? Would y'all donate to my cause? Please? Please.


-Toodles

I know about love... Pt 2

You can read the first part here.

So there I was 17 years old walking away from my home towards someone I was sure was just using me. Locks took me back in and everything went back to normal. Because I wasn't working, I spent a lot of time in the library. Back then the internet wasn't popping as it is now so I just read books (I know). After a couple of visits at the library, I noticed a guy who seemed to keep the same hours as I did. I don't know if it was coincidence or he was deliberately trying to catch my attention, but it got us talking regularly. After a couple of weeks or so, he asked to take me out. Even though I was living with Locks, I didn't feel an attachment to him anymore especially after the porch incident. I guess I was using him now. I agreed to the Library boy's date and was psyched to go.

When library boy man (yes he was a man) said date I imagined food, movies, anything. First he took me to a music store. Library man played with some guitars, talked specs with the sales guy and then we were off. Okay, maybe we'll start the real date now, I thought. However, Library man had other plans. He drove me to his mother's daycare center (stop laughing). The daycare was operating out of a house so the upstairs was still set up like a family home. Once library man and I got upstairs, I noticed there was a man sitting in one of the rooms. Library man walked into the room and motioned for me to follow. I was leery but followed him anyway. Library man and this guy started talking and joking around. So they're friends, hmmm...  Then things got weird. Library man kept telling me to walk toward the door and come back over and over again. After the second time I realized him and his friends were checking me out. I asked to leave but he walked over and grabbed my butt. His friend was watching with intense interest. "How old are you?" Library man's friend asked. "17." "What?" Library man looked at the other guy and said, "It's time to go." I never told him my age but I always looked young so I don't know what Library man expected. Anyhow, I nearly fell down the stairs I was running to the car so fast. Looking back, I realize it was a set up. My naiveness almost got me into an ill-advised  threesome. I nearly fell down the stairs trying to get to the car.

Library man drove me to Locks house in silence. As we got closer to the house, I waited for an explanation that would never come. When the car pulled up to Locks' house I left all my what the fuckness in Library man's car. I never saw him again. But someone else saw Library man, Locks' sisters. Even though I never talked to them, his sister knew I stayed downstairs.

"I'm leaving. Thank you for everything and I will always love you." That was the gist of the note I left Locks. I placed the note under his pillow. This was a week after the Library man mess. I had had enough. I found out that Locks was still seeing his supposedly former girlfriend and everyone in the house knew expect me. School was starting in a month and I figured I could find somewhere to hang until then. I left Locks' house with my little bag of clothes and that was it.

But it wasn't. I was 17 and came from a very sheltered house. I had few friends. I stayed with this person and that person but after a week I had no other place to crash. One day I had spent a whole downtown and had no place for the night. I was desperate so I took the route to Locks' house. He never locked his back door so I just walked in. As I was getting settled in the basement, I heard someone whisper, It's her.

In less than a minute, Locks' three sisters were on me. His one sister was around my age but his other two were around 12-13 ish. I focused on fighting the older of the three while running to the door. I got to the alley with the older sister still punching me. "Stupid bitch!" She yelled before going back into the house.

My shirt was torn but I was ok. My shoulder was hurting and it wasn't until I got to a mirror later that I saw, someone had bit me. At the time I didn't know what prompted the fight. Later that week, I spoke with Locks. He kept asking me why did I steal his money. I had no idea what the hell he was talking about. He said he had his sisters jump me because I stole $40 and that he knew I was seeing other men. He said his sisters saw me with a man in front of the house. I ignored the cheating comment and keep pleading my innocence about the theft. He didn't believe me. He thought that my letter was proof of my guilt.

I was shocked. I've seen the money Locks' bought in from selling drugs. It was more than $40. His belief that I stole his money and him getting me jump ended everything between us. I moved on and tried to forget him until...


To Be Continued


-Toodles

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Hollyweird: Kate Gosselin

Snatched from US Weekly

The above pictures of Kate Gosselin are proof of what celebrity, money and plastic surgery can do for a person. In each picture, Kate lost at least 5 years from her face. I'm not hating at all. How many kids does she has? *googles* 8 children, hmmm. So all I have to do is pump 5 more humans and I can get my tummy tuck and breast lift.

*creeps upstairs to Officer*



-Toodles

Monday, November 21, 2011

I know about love...


I remember being told I couldn't comment on love or dating because I've been with Officer for 10 years. True I've been out the dating pool for a minute but that doesn't mean I can't voice my opinions. Granted he's my best friend and the love of my life, but he wasn't my first *ahem* boyfriend.

My boyfriend before Officer was.... different. I met him through my cousin who was dating his brother at the time. My cousin and I thought it would be cute to double date because we hang out all the time and it would be easier lol. Because my parents were in the church (my adopted father was a pastor) we always had the boys meet us at my cousin's house.

I was 16 when we met and he was 19 (hush). For now on I'll call him Locks. He had some long ones with bangs (hush hush). Locks was not cute, at all. As far back as I can remember, I never liked anyone just because they were cute. I like some substance on my men. Anyway, he had nice teeth and an even better smile.

I was a virgin at the time and if Locks wanted to pop my cherry, he never tried. We would kiss heavily, i.e. make out but it never went there. I saw him off and on for awhile and eventually our little fling ended. I'm sure it had something to do with my parents making me stay in the house more and more.

And then the summer of my Junior year, my parents put me out the house. I don't recall the incident or events that sparked my eviction but I was on the street. The only person I knew with his own place was Locks. He moved me in, no questions asked and I couldn't believe my luck....

Until I found out he was addicted to weed. I was still in high school and at the time wasn't working. Even though Locks had his own place, he wasn't working either. See, it was his mother's house. She remarried and chose not to sell the house because of her older children. Locks had the basement to himself and his siblings lived upstairs. Earlier when I said Locks wasn't working, I meant he wasn't working a 9-5 job. He sold weed and smoked up his profits. They say weed gives you the munchies, well... Locks rarely ate. I would be starving because Locks would only buy weed.

Locks had no problem getting jobs though. Just had problems keeping them. He went to Job Corps and had a trade. Job Corps would found his employment but he would smoke weed everyday, fail drug tests and get fired. I was so in love that I was able to look past all that until...

He sleep with another girl while I was sitting on the porch. I was now 17 and Locks and I were intimate. Young love is dumb love but you know what they say about hindsight... I use to hang with Locks and his friends while he sold weed (I didn't realize this until after) because I had nothing better to do. One night while we were hanging on the porch,two girls with short skirts on walked past the house. They weren't all that cute but it was late so Locks' friends started calling at them. I remember one girl was wearing a shower cap (don't ask) so the guys started screaming, Shower Cap!

For whatever reason, the girls stopped and was bribed to perform sexual favors for weed. Shower Cap was resistant but with some nudging from me, she said ok.

The first girl went upstairs with one of Locks' friends. 10 mins later the guy came down and another guy went up. I was in disbelief. I couldn't believe they were running a train on the girl! She finally came down, took her weed and left. Shower Cap went up but came down a couple minutes later. Turns out she was a virgin. The guy she went upstairs with tried but couldn't "fit." The guys were persistant though, and Shower Cap went upstairs with... Locks.

I was done. I just sat on the porch, pretending like I wasn't bothered in the least. What could I do? I was homeless, hanging with drug users and sellers. When Shower Cap and Locks came downstairs, I pretended I was sleep. I must have fell asleep for real because when I woke up, everyone was gone. Word on the street was Locks has been locked up. I was worried. He had been locked up multiple times before and I didn't know if he would have to do jail time. As I trying to sort out my thoughts, Locks' mother rolls up in her car and I saw Locks' sitting in the passenger seat. His mother tells me to get in and immediately asks for my address. I gave it to her because it was easier than explaining why I was on the streets. She dropped me off, I wave goodbye, wait until she got to the corner, and start walking back to Locks' house.

He was all I had at the time...

To Be Continued.

-Toodles

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Sunday, November 20, 2011

Makes You Go, Huh?

Becky, is my butt too big?


Ms. Mr. Lady Man above with the disproportional body is Oneal Ron Morris. He was posing as a doctor in Florida, injecting anything he could find into women's butts. His mixture, named "Fix-A-Flat" was composed of cement, mineral oil and super glue Lord! One woman nearly died after the concoction spread throughout her body. 

Wow.

It's totally Kim Kardashian fault. 



-Toodles


Postsecrets

Every Sunday without fail I visit Postsecret blog. It's updated with secrets people send in on post cards. I identify with at least one a week. Today's postcard touched home. No I haven't lost anyone to texting and driving but I'm guilty of doing it on occasion.

Secret:


Wow. While I make it a rule to never talk to someone on the phone if they're are driving, it's hard to know if someone is texting you and doing the same. Now a days I actually put my phone in my center console in order to eliminate the distraction. I hope you do the same.


No Texting And Driving!

You can read more secrets on www.postsecret.com.

-Toodles




Thursday, November 17, 2011

Oh the places you will go....

Schools I have attended K-12:

Duke Ellington Primary School
John Eager Howard Elementary School
Ashburton Elementary School
Callaway Elementary School
Pimlico Middle School
Baltimore Polytechnic Instititute

Whew.....




-Toodles

Football Legacy > _________, more Penn State news

"As news unravels around the grand jury report revealing charges against former Penn State football defensive coordinator Jerry Sandusky for raping and sexually molesting underage boys, some former black Penn State students are now painfully reliving a scandal that occurred at their university ten years ago. In 2000, the year a janitor witnessed a boy younger than 13 (“Victim 8” in a grand jury report) “pinned against a wall” while Sandusky performed oral sex on him, black students and football players on Penn State’s campus began receiving hate mail." <---Snatched from loop21.com


You can read more by clicking the link:
http://loop21.com/content/other-penn-state-cover-death-threats-against-black-students

Absolutely appalling. Especially since someone was obviously killed, smh.



-Toodles  

When companies get it right


I wish I knew where this dry cleaner was. I would find any reason to patronize it. Seriously.



-Toodles

Where's my dummy stamp?

Ugh!

Remember a couple of weeks back I announced my employment? I was so happy I was high fiving everyone on Sesame Street. Well..... I'm not pleased with my district manager. Every other day I'm calling him as a reminder, Hey, you hired someone! He keeping saying he emailed me paperwork to fill out which I never get. I gave him several email addresses and somehow I never receive anything from him. Out of desperation, I asked was it possible to get the paperwork from him in the field (while he was traveling to his stores) and he agreed. However, he changed the time and day, three times. Man...

Do know that I am still on the job market. My annoyance level on how he conducts business is at 94 percent. I wanted to be working by Black Friday so I could stash some Christmas money away. This man is basically taking money out my pocket.


*Hulk Smash*


Okay, that felt good.



-Toodles

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Web series: Mis-Adventures of Awkward Black Girl

As much as I love television, I haven't gotten into the whole "watch youtube videos and upload the funny ones to facebook" thingy. However someone uploaded an episode of the web series "Mis-Adventures of Awkward Black Girl" on Twitter and I couldn't stop laughing.

Here's episode 1:


You can enjoy the rest on youtube or go to the website: www.arkwardblackgirl.com. You'll watch them all in one sitting. Bet.



-Toodles





Makes You Go, Huh?

Sandusky lawyer, Joe Amendola left, Bob Costas right
1. Monday, Jerry Sandusky gave a phone interview on television. I gave 0 fucks. The only thing I want to hear from him would be his last words before he went to the chair. I didn't watch at all. I refused to let his predatory ass in my house no matter the means.


All it took was one sex tape....
2. Time magazine wants your vote on whether to make Kim Kardashian "2011 Person of The Year." I guess.


Yup, I stole the picture, move on lol
     3. Seagram Gin, alcohol + black people= du rag. Smart. Not.




4. Who the hell shot the White House? I mean seriously. This is REAL news. I won't be surprised if President    Obama hair is completely grey now.



-Toodles

Female Orgasm: Watch It Here

I like to think my brain is pretty with all those colors lol

Get your minds out the gutter!

Nan Wise, 54-year-old PhD student and sex therapist, laid down in the scanner and stimulated herself. What Wise recorded was a video of what her brain looks like when she orgasms.


Watch her brain below:
http://jezebel.com/5859785/watch-the-worlds-first-movie-of-the-female-brain-during-orgasm


The video is crazy. Scientist say only epilepsy brings more activity to the female brain. Wow.




-Toodles






*Thanks Jezebel.com, I snatched this story and phrases from you. 

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Man card violation...


When your daughters ask their father if he was Team Edward or Team Jacob of Twilight fame and he says, Team Jacob.

D'oh.


-Toodles


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Monday, November 14, 2011

Conversations With My Daughters 3

Super Duper Sharp

My daughters misplaced their pencil sharpener so I was using a knife to make a point on my 6 year old's pencil.

6yo: Ma, did you know sharks make knives?

Me: Huh?

6yo: Yeah, I mean their teeth are so sharp.

Me: o_O

Quotes

"Baltimore is beautiful today. God is trying to make up to Ray Lewis for that Ravens loss last night."


-Me


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Sunday, November 13, 2011

My night has...

been filled with disappointment.


1. My Ravens lose to a 2-6 team.


2. My cell phone decides to only last 10 minutes a charge.


3. And I'm without a laptop, again.


That's all that has happened tonight. My shows are beginning in a few and hopefully this will numb my mild hopeless.


-Toodles


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Christmas Shopping

Yesterday was a big ball of activity. I woke up ready to tackle the majority of my Christmas shopping. You see, Officer and I normally wait two or three days before Christmas to race out and purchases items among the leftovers. But not this year. I decided to use layaway.


I went to Kmart with a mission in mind: buy clothes. And that I did, $288 worth. Which is totally reasonable for three kids. That price also includes coats for all of them which I definitely clapped myself on the back for.


However, one negative about layaway is the urge to "throw it in the bag." Throw it in the bag means buying things without checking prices because you have it. Y'all know my pockets, um no lol.


I spent nearly 2 hours shopping bargins and whatnot. I'm so relieved this part of Christmas is done. My oldest girls are out the toy stage and they want big ticket electronics. I'm saving those gifts for Black Friday. But that of course depends on if I'm not working that day.


-Toodles


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Saturday, November 12, 2011

Conversations Heard in Passing

I was at the library Friday printing out some forms when I saw this 2 year old walking with a book towards check out with her mother.


2 yo to lady standing behind her: I can read this book!


Lady: No you can't. You can just look at the pictures. You can't read.


Wow lady wow. She obviously doesn't have or been around any children. Ever, lol.


-Toodles


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Been a long time, shouldn't 've left you....

I'm sorry for the short absence. I know it's only been a couple days but I'm use to blogging daily. The reason for my non posting is my re-emerging online presence on Twitter. Yeah I'm back. That month away had been the hardest thing ever. I missed watching tv shows and not tweeting up a storm with other follow watchers.


Also I haven't been blogging because my phone betrayed me. It stopped charging. I had to buy a device to charge the battery separately. This is not fun nor convenient.


Regardless of my technical difficulties, I promise to post some entries today. The show must go on.


-Toodles


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Wednesday, November 9, 2011

*sings* Take me out to sushi....

I want sushi. From RA. But I don't have anyone to go with. This makes me sad. I will now stare at the above picture for at least 10 minutes.


-Toodles


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Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Conversations with my daughters 2

The kids and I were watching Good Times before homework time this afternoon.


Oldest daughter: I wonder what year this is.


Me: *folding clothes* The 70's.


Daughter: They had cameras back then?


Me: O_O


-Toodles


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Two stepping!

I gots me a job! I'm working for a past employer. One that I left say, 4 years ago. The kicker is I didn't have to interview for it at all. I spoke with a hiring manager a week ago and he said he had to call corporate to make sure I left on good times. He was suppose to call back that same afternoon but after a week went by with no word from him, I moved on to the next.


And then today....


A call. An apology for not calling back and then a job offer. A one minute phone call erased six months of stress from being unemployed. Whew.


I've given myself a challenge though. I will become manager in five months. I'm a good salesperson and it can be done.


Watch.


-Toodles


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Football's greater than children's well being according to Penn State

I'm disgusted.


I just read the grand jury report about the indictment of Jerry Sandusky for alleged sexual abuse against at least 8 underage victims.


I want to fight. First on my list, of course, Sandusky. What a nasty, sick, predatory monster. Next, Joe Paterno for not going to the proper authorities when in March 2002 a graduate assistant of Penn told Paterno he saw Sandusky engaged in sex with an underage boy in the locker room showers. THEN an ass kicking to Carly Schultz, Penn State's Vice President for Finance and Business for not reacting correctly to the GA's accounts. Schultz also called the allegations by the graduate assistant "not that serious."


Grown men covering up sexual abuse for the legacy of an university. Fucking cowards. I hate everything about this case. As I read the victims stories I repeatedly air punch around me. Ugh. What a sleazy dog Sandusky was.


This dude, under the guise of helping troubled youth, opened a center, The Second Mile, in 1977. The Second Mile was a foster home for disadvantaged children. Jerry Sandusky had his pick of the litter :(


Before the graduate assistant walked in on Sandusky abusing a child in 2002, Sandusky was accused before of inappropriate behavior with a child. In 1998, the former Penn State defensive coordinator was investigated after a mother reported him for reportedly taking a shower with her 11 year old son.


No words on why this story took so long to come out. No words on how Sandusky was allowed to continue molesting children even with all these red flags. All that was told to him was not to bring children on Penn State's campus....


Did your jaw drop like mine did when I first read that?


You can read the whole grand jury report here.


-Toodles


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Monday, November 7, 2011

Hollyweird: Lindsay Lohan

Lindsay Lohan spent 4.5 hours in jail last night for violating her parole for the umpteen time.


If she wasn't a celebrity her freckled ass would have done YEARS.


We all know cousins, uncles, friends who was in her pedicament and was slammed into jail by "The Man" with hard time.


TMZ.com has to be Lindsay Lohan's biggest fan. Between her famed obssesed, orange parents and her little big sister, Lindsay brings traffic to their website.


Oh to be a fair haired, substance addicted b-celebrity.


-Toodles


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Dr. Conrad Murray, Guilty



Dr. Conrad Murray was declared guilty of involuntary manslaughter of Michael Jackson less than 10 minutes ago.


I'm not surprised about the outcome of the case. MJ gone, my *n-word* dead in the words of Kanye West. This verdict of course won't bring Michael Jackson back. But hopefully it brings closure to the family and fans.


I don't believe Conrad intentionally killed MJ and neither did the jury, HOWEVER there was neglect when he left Michael alone under the drug Demerol.


Malpractice 101.


#RIP MJ


-Toodles


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Decisions

There's a point in your adult life when you realize that a decision you must make has a huge impact on your future. Other people can offer advice but bottom line, YOU must choose.


I've been fighting my decision. I'm too comfortable, it's too tough, I'm scared blah, blah, triple blah. I need to evolve. Things need to change. I need to change.


I have a stirring inside of me that's growing louder and stronger. I'm resisting the force because it's fighting against who I've became after all this time. It's unnerving, I'm doubting myself. But I have to choose.


Do it.


Don't do it.


I don't know.


-Toodles


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Ravens vs Steelers: 23- 20 W

My baby daddies did it! The Baltimore Ravens defeated the Pittsburg Steelers on their home field tonight. I screamed, cried and almost sprain my ankle watching this game.


We are 2-0 against the Steelers this season praise Jill Scott.

Summing up the game:

Pitta: Todd Heeeeeap-like 5 rec 45 yds

Boldin: Clutch receiver, 7 rec 88 yds

T. Smith: Game winning TD!

Flacco: Finally earning his Pizza Hut endorsement


And....


Ray Lewis for best supporting actor for his post game sermon during Flacco's interview.


Amen.


-Toodles


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Sunday, November 6, 2011

My name is Tierra and I'm a tv addict

I mentioned many, many posts ago about my love for television. I just updated my facebook status stating how many shows I'm recording tonight because of a late Ravens game. The list is over 5 shows.


Housewives of Altanta

Boardwalk Empire

The Walking Dead

Sister Wives

Black Girls Rock

Dexter

Homeland


Whew....


I'm actually thinking about doing tv show recaps on this here blog because I watch enough. I dunno though. It might be too time consuming and interfere with my addiction ;)


Okay back to football.


-Toodles


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The day after...

Yesterday was awesomeness in multiple red cups ;) After the historical (and undefeated!) Baltimore Polytechnic Engineers manhandled the un-noble City College Knights, I racewalked to a large tailgating party that had begin at 7 am that morning...


I wasn't alone. Officer and I are highschool sweethearts *swoon* so he was there. And we met up with 3 more classmates after arriving at M&T stadium.


The tailgating section was rocking. Music, free food and free drinks. Yaaas! I reconnected with more classmates ('02 in the house!), did a little two step and we moved to the City side of the party.


Even though City is the enemy AND we had just defeated them on the football field, they can party. Hard. They had bartenders mixing drinks, a live a@$ dj and people dancing for their lives. We spent the remainer of our time there. Even on the City side I still saw people I knew because Baltimore is oh so small.


After more than enough drinks and two near potty accidents, I took the long walk to the car giving Officer time to hang with his boys. I was between sleeping off the alcohol and updating facebook statuses when Officer returned. He suggested the Cheesecake Factory for dinner and I was ALL for it lol.


A brilliant day turned into a fun night. It totally took me back to my high school days until... I saw some kids walking around with Class of 2012 shirts. I'm getting old :/


-Toodles


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Saturday, November 5, 2011

Poly > City

One of the oldest football rivalry in the nation and.... We, Poly, won!


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Friday, November 4, 2011

Conversations with my daughters

Today me and my older daughter  watched Fatal Attractions, a show about people who owned big cats, i.e. tigers, lions etc.


One of the owners was defending the right to have these big cats in possession. Unfortunately he had a lazy eye.


My daughter: What's wrong with his eye? Did the tiger move it?


Me: LUUUUUUUUUUU


Daughter: Ma, seriously, if he was at the door, would you open it?


Me: *collapses and slides off the couch


-Toodles


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Purple Friday!

Baltimore Ravens fans you know what it do! Today is Purple Friday, the day we show our Ravens pride by sporting all purple or player jerseys.


All trash talk begins today about stealing the Steelers in the mouths. I'm awaiting Sunday where my boys shut the Steelers out on their own turf.


I proclaim a Ravens victory. Score prediction, hmmm.... 20/7.


Who wants to make a friendly bet?


-Toodles


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Smacked in the face pt 2

You can read the first part of the story here.


So... there I was, dressed for an interview that didn't happen. It was now 4:30 pm so I decided to stop by the grocery store to pick up some things for dinner. As I was shopping I saw a familiar face.


J_____. <-insert any J name


J was a guy I briefly worked with before leaving on maternity leave in '09. The same guy who later got fired for fraud and theft. And finally the very same guy I see over and over again at new store selling phones.


We performed the normal pleasantries and then I got hit with a bomb.


"Yeah, I'm doing fine. I'm working for corporate now."


What thee fudge?!


Here I am a good, honest salesperson that can't get a single interview with any wireless carrier and J has been employed with multiple. He seriously must be the best slick talker in the world.


I said Goodbye and race walked to checkout. I was barely to my car before I broke down crying.


What am I doing wrong? I don't understand. I revamped my resume time and time again. Officer told me that perhaps it's a sign to move on from sales. I guess it could be true but I've done it for long. It's part of me now and it's hard to just give up.


*shrugs*


-Toodles


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I want _________'s body!

That there is Shakira. Belly dancing since she was a little one, her hips don't lie ;) She's representation of the perfect little package to me. Shakira knows multiple languages, sings, dances and has a song where a man sings her name over and over again. Shakira, Shakira!


Sidenote: Orginally God gave me the choice of my body or Shakira's body, of course I chose this one...


-Toodles


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Chick fil a, get in my belly!

Chick fil a is on the agenda this morning. Chicken? Good. Biscuit? Yum.


<- This slightly overweight woman is anxious.


*tummy rumbles*


-Toodles


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Thursday, November 3, 2011

Conversations heard in passing...

Frizzled Mom at grocery store to her 4 yr old daughter : Stop it!


Sassy 4 yr old: Ma, you're making me nervous...


Me: trying to catch my breath from laughing so hard


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Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Annoyances pt 1

1. Late replies back to text messages, like 15-20 mins late.


2. Waiting for someone whose "on their way" i.e. never left the house or is constantly "5 mins away."


3. When you have a date set with someone and when you call to confirm, the person doesn't answer the phone or reply to text. Huh? We're adults, right?


4. Parents who treat kids as accessories on the weekends, stop.


5. Usage of the words hater and the n-word *cringe*


6. The city of Baltimore.


7. Kim Kardashian


8. Paying crazy cable prices only to have 7-10 quality channels.


9. Relationship issues, ugh.


10. Self proclaimed psychologists on Facebook. Return your quote book back to the library, it's overdue.


-Toodles


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Whatcha mad at me for?

Ladies and Gents,


Can I ask y'all question? Why doesn't justice prevail when you inform your friend/family member/coworker that you have information that their significant other is cheating?


Who do they always get mad at? *looks around* You silly. And for what? I guess forcing them to accept what they already know. What a tangled web we weave... *cues Tupac beat*


-Toodles


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I dunno...

Just finished a phone interview. I think I did okay but you never know. I'm a better face to face interviewee. But now I have to wait a week or two to hear back from someone.


I hate that.


-Toodles


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Smacked in the face

Yesterday afternoon I felt like the whole universe gave me a knuckle sandwich.

*Maury voice*

"And here's her story" *cues video*


I had a late interview yesterday scheduled at 4:15. It was for a position at a warehouse. I wasn't pressed for it but hey, I need a job. I arrived at the store, gave the front desk employee my name and waited.  She approaches me a couple minutes later.


"Tierra, who did you say called you for the interview?"


"Courtney."


"Courtney? She's not scheduled to work today."


O_O


She then picks up the phone and makes some calls. In my head I continue to cuss my luck. I overhear her conversation,"We're not hiring? Okay."


She walks over to me again.


"Ma'am, are you sure your interview isn't for another location?"


"Yes, I'm sure. I only applied for this store."


As she went back to the front desk, I strolled through my call log. I knew I still had the interviewer's phone number. I called and.... "Good Afternoon (different location) Warehouse, how can I help you?


O_O


I closed my cellphone and moonwalked out the door. I was mad at two people: myself and the manager at the other location. She never told me the location yesterday AND I never verified the location because I only applied to the store nearest my house.


So there I was, professionally dressed with nowhere to go....


To be continued....


-Toodles


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Adult Problems....



... Why didn't the garbage men take ALL my trash this morning? I mean, I know some pieces were *mumbles* furniture. Now later today instead of clearing out my dvr, i.e. catching up on my shows, I have to take a trip to the friendly dump.


Kids don't have to worry about stuff like this. I want my childhood member services card back, please.


-Toodles


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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

My new mantra

"When you're going through hell, keep going!"

-Winston Churchill

I need to repeat this DAILY.

-Toodles

Happy day after Halloween

Lady J trick or treating for the first time.

Enjoy.


I'm 99% plus 1 jobless

3 job interviews this week. Where's the yays? In my back pocket. Being unemployed for 5 going on 6 months has sucked 67% of my joy away from me. My optimism is gone.

Mama, I think I need to kill a man so I can get my swagger back. (I kid, it's Hov if you didn't know)

Yesterday I received an email from Verizon Wireless thanking me for applying for a position but they decided to go with a more qualified candidate. Ha! I sold Verizon for 7 years. What, did they hired someone who sold their phones for 7.3 yrs? Unbelievable.

Anyway, when I'm not getting those types of emails, I'm searching for temp work, which is now far and in between. Christmas is knocking at my door does so my job search has been kicked into super overdrive.

Anyone have any job leads?

-Toodles